anyway, mother just left so i'm having coffee for breakfast again. oh hang on, i've got to weigh in. i'm up a half pound. i deserve that. my best buddy invited me over so i spent 4-9:30 at her house yesterday. did i mention her dad is an amazing cook? not that good food really tempts me any more than bad food. but i do eat in front of my friend because i want her to be in the group of people who think i'm normal. (partly because it's a small group right now, partly because she's young&impressionable&i don't want her to fuck up like me.) so her dad grilled zucchini&chicken. i don't know how many calories, i didn't watch him make it, i don't want to guess. i did have fun, though. her parents adore me which is convenient. did i mention her mother is really freaking skinny? blah blah blah.
my plan for today is to take surprise for a walk, pluck my eyebrows, get coffee with a buddy of mine, do a thousand little exercises in my room, &oh yeah, not eat. just for today. a liquid fast really, because i'll have tea&coffee&i will probably put coconut milk in my coffee. oh right, we're supposed to go grocery shopping today. fucks sake. i've no clue what to get. the only thing on my list is pretzels.
or:
my friend wants to have matching, or at least coordinating, halloween costumes this year. so i've got to be thinner than her. stay strong today, lovelies.
xoxo
zette
p.s. going grocery shopping now. duhasjklfkjsdfiuehwiuerghz.
It's nice of you to try and stop your friend getting fucked up :)
ReplyDeleteTea/coffee fast sounds idea ATM :P and I don't think there is any doubt you will be thinner than your friend, you're tiny!
Lottie x
as lottie said, you're tiny, so i dont doubt that you'll be skinnier than your friend and the one that people are jealous of :) xo.
ReplyDeleteomg dude, all of your bones are showing in that pic, I didn't think it was you, because you always talk about becoming skinnier than other people. Like, I can clearly see your whole ribcage. Inteeeense. I hopw you have a great day doll.
ReplyDeleteBy the way, you look insanely good in those photos from a few days ago... and I've never told you, I love when you write about and post photos of your dog! I'm such an animal lover and Italian Greyhounds (that's her right?) are just so stinkin' cute!
ReplyDeleteI wasn't sure as you always say you're not thin (enough). This is incredibly thin! Don't you see how thin you are? How much weight do you want to lose before you will wear that beautiful dress? It already hangs loose around your body a bit.
ReplyDeleteI don't know if it is good or bad that this is you on that photograph.
I do not intend to criticise or patronise you, because I am of two minds about striving for thin and that would be just hypocritical. I know where I come from and I am still or again on the verge flirting with the idea to go back. I'm attracted and repelled at the same time.
So do what you think is right for you. But, take care.
xx
I really like what Judith wrote. And I can see that you're really thin now, you've clearly lost a lot of weight, honey.
ReplyDeleteI don't want to judge, though. I support you in anything you do, you're a strong person and I believe in you.
I'm sending you love.