my whole world is a little disheveled. my weight is around the same. it goes about four pounds below what it is now, then i get it back up again. it's frustrating, maintaining. but i don't want to have to see my doctor again. or, if i got to my goal, my therapist would talk nonstop inpatient facilities which never fails to freak me out. so it's best to maintain. i keep telling myself that.
all i do outside of work is work out, write, sketch, read, walk my dog, play guitar, &see a couple of friends. i'm still on holiday from work. i don't go back until wednesday. i miss the kids but i know i needed the break. i'm sorry i haven't commented on any of your blogs in so long. every time i read through them i want to clean out my kitchen&fast until i pass out. especially those with photos. you're all really beautiful. the only bones i can see right now are collarbones, ribs, hips, &sternum really. so i try to avoid the mirror. i'm in a weird headspace so i'll leave off here.
xoxo
zette
p.s. is it bad to steal the neighbor's dog when they leave him in inclement weather, then return him when it's warm? they weren't home, they didn't notice.
