somebody emailed me a question&i decided to answer it today. so to whoever lilgirllost is, my highest weight was 132. since i'm 5'8" that's not overweight, i know, but still. so that answers other questions, about whether or not i've ever been overweight. i haven't. technically. but i'm sure a few of you can understand how it feels to be built curvy, told you're curvy, even told it's a good thing, but look in the mirror&see pounds of unnecessary fat. i was huge. i mean i'm pretty big now, but looking back i can't imagine having a bmi of 20 or so again. too too too much. i don't have an 'ultimate goal weight'. i can't possibly know at what weight i'll look okay. so i'll just go on until....until what? i'm not sure. i guess we'll see.
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when you decide to act like a child, it works best if you're not the size of a beast. i'm sorry you had to hold that girl up, monkey bars. stay strong today, lovelies.
xoxo
zette
p.s. sitting outside with tanning oil on my legs for a an hour or so today. t-shirt to save my sunburned shoulders. sunscreen on my rudolph nose. fucking paleness.
its to hot to b outside fofr me today its in the 90's and i spent 7 hours outside in that yesterday
ReplyDeletesad to say u will prob never like how u look well thats how iam atleast this disease never lets u like it it alwasy want u smaller and thinner
have a good day hun
omg, that third girl is so perfect. <3
ReplyDelete132 is not overweight by any means, especially at your height, but I can understand your need to feel smaller. I've never been overweight either, but the majority of my friends and family are, so it's pretty stifling. This is very superficial, but my biggest fear is ending up like them...plus chronic diseases run in my family so I want to be healthy too.
ReplyDeleteAnyway, hope you have more color on your legs!
I for the first time read your profile thing... Zette as in "Set," eh? Wasn't Set an evil egyptian god or something...? THat explains your dark mystical slimspo prowess :P
ReplyDeleteKeep 'em coming, ninja:]