Tuesday, March 22, 2011

9:52am

so yesterday i'd had 4 cups of coffee, 6 cups of water. then my mother came home&insisted i eat soup. with tortilla chips. seriously? i ate part of it. i don't know how many calories. but it hurt my stomach like a motherfucker. i drank vitamin water&then made mint tea but my stomach wouldn't forgive me. after mother was asleep i did 50 extra crunches&100 jumping jacks. i felt a little better.
also, to becky, the quote is super old. i assume i was referring to pro ana people. i was pro ana. i don't know what i am now. i decided to try a stupid/bad/unhealthy/unsafe diet&now the voice i adopted in my head never seems to go away. i suppose it's true that people can drive themselves to madness. anyway, mystery soup was veggies in beef broth, 6 oz, marking it down at 500.


or:
compare the girl in jeans to the girl in the center. hm. makes me want to get a tan. &throw away my breakfast instead of eating it. stay strong today, lovelies.

xoxo
zette
p.s. going back to my old rule, "do not eat alone. there's no reason to."

4 comments:

  1. That's not too bad. Well done with all the liquids :)
    Good rule, I wish I could stick to it :/
    Stay strong,
    Lottie x

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  2. I hope your stomach feels better! It can be a bitch sometimes. And most of us relate to that voice. Sometimes a friend, sometimes a foe, always consistent. At least the coffee and exercise should counteract the soup!

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  3. I hate that bloated fullness :/ right now my stomach is yelling at me too
    I know what you mean. I'm not sure if I'm pro-ana anymore but I'm pro something :) we'll figure it out one day
    <3 stay strong lovie
    I think I'll do that too there really isn't a point in eating alone

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