Monday, March 28, 2011

11:28am

liquid fast today. water&black coffee. only calories will be vitamin water with emergen-c so i don't fall over when i take surprise to the park. (for the new kiddies, surprise is my dog's name. yes, i look like an idiot when i lose her in the neighborhood yelling "surprise")
 i've written "don'tyoudare" on my left wrist today. writing on myself is really helpful for me. also, i made a choker necklace to remind me. it's a little tight so i can always feel it. i like it. physical things like that are nice to have when nothing else is telling me i don't need to eat. except my stomach. when i eat more than a few hundred calories my stomach hurts a lot. so i guess that helps, too.
did i mention that i'm happy? well, happyish. happyish because i'm not doing as well as i want to, but happy that i'm better than i was. i'm getting there. you're a big part of that. without all the sweet comments i'd walk around focusing on my mistakes&thinking i'm a huge failure. thanks, ladies. oops. long post. random photos.


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i feel as big as the girl on the left. i hate being tall. it makes me feel like a monster. 5'8" fatty. oh well. maybe when i'm as thin as the girl on the right i'll feel better. stay strong, lovelies.

xoxo
zette
p.s. the song "my silent undoing" by queen adreena creeps me out a bit. but i kept it on my playlist.

15 comments:

  1. Good luck on your liquid fast darling! And I love your dog's name:D

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  2. Thank's for tip regarding the necklace and such. I'm so old school I still walk around with a rubber band.
    Good ur feeling happy and that ur succeeding. Keep pushing.

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  3. Haha cool name for your dog :)
    Good luck!
    Stay strong,
    Lottie x

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  4. ur really lovely :) i love ur hair
    and i think ur dogs name is awesome.
    by the way, can u check if u can still access my blog? i changed the link of it and im worried that people cant get on it now :S if so, ill change it back to what it was.
    lots of love,
    xxxxx
    ps. i always write on myself too

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  5. Haazah for happishness! I'm totally going to write on my wrist when I go home this weekend. I will not undo all of this progress! Thanks for the tip!

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  6. Hahahaha. Wow, I hadn't really given any thought to you calling your pup in public.... I guess you probably do look a little crazy!

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  7. I am doing a liquid fast today too!! Go team!!

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  8. Good to hear that you're happy, even if only happish. Keep up the good work <3

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  9. Hey, sorry for double commenting, but I nominated you for an award :)

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  10. yay for liquid fast good luck have fun at the park

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  11. I write things on my hand too, although I usually draw because words seem to conspicuous in my mind. For some reason "Don't you dare" has always seemed like a really powerful phrase to me. I'm not sure why.

    Haha I love that your dog's name is surprise :)

    Xx. Lillie

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  12. :)) I love your dogs name!

    xoxo

    -Sabrina

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  13. Yay, I'm happy you're happy-ish. =)
    And I'm glad you're doing better. At least slow loss is better than slow gain, right? Stay strong, I know you'll do great on your liquid fast.

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  14. You're so funny, I had to love so much as I imagined you walking around screaming 'surprise'. Hahahaha.
    I am happy for you, because I really like hearing that you feel better. stay strong, love!

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  15. Ugh, I totally get the tall thing. I am 5'9" and taller than every one I know so I feel like a ginormous monster all the time. Hate it.

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