3:22pm

slumber party: mystery calories, bonfire, 7 dogs, 200 crunches, stay up til 6am, got up at 11, drank coffee, went grocery shopping, just had a salad spinach(20) turkey(50) tomatoes(10) dressing(20) total(100)


anyway, awards are floating around again.

thanks to ayden/dear ana & cora for nominating me. you're sweeties.

Seven things:

1. i just bought 10 bottles of vitamin water zero for $5 at kroger.

2. i'm going to plant larkspur outside my window because tall, purple flowers are always a good idea.

3. i really like that my cat spinny announces herself with a meow when she walks in the room&i secretly like her more than i do some of my friends.

4. most days i feel like a complete loser because i don't want to spend $30 every weekend to go out with friends&do stupid things when we could spend $2 on a loaf of bread to feed ducks at the marina&have a blast.

5. i don't know if i want to call myself pro ana. i'm more pro doing whateverthefuckyou want to if it makes you happy. losing weight makes me happy.

6. i hate my legs. i obsess over them. i have dreams of them being thinner than my knees, &i have nightmares about them falling off/being ripped off/being stolen&eaten. sheesh.

7. it really makes me sad that i'm so big. it makes me sad every day. when i lose weight, i'm happy. but later, alone, i feel the layer of fat&i want to cry. except i don't cry anymore. crying is stupid.

the rules say to pick a "newly discoverd" blogger, but i haven't discovered new people really because i just got back. so fuck the rules. i love these ladies.

1. merely rose at lovely me (she's a sweetheart.)

2. teresauras at lickstrangefruit (fantastic? yes.)

3. jane doe at to be weightless.. (lovely&more loyal than i deserve for her to be.)

4. lilah lee at a diamond in the rough (miss kels gives good tips&makes me smile.)

5. felicia at broken wings (she's a doll&her honesty is appreciated.)

6. emily at corruption (for putting up with me&for her encouragement.)

7. savanna at fatty falling flat (tongue twister blog title&wonderful pictures.)

8. monosyllabic girl at booger fairies and pixie farts (perfect thinspo&funny posts.)

9. lexi at choking on glass (she's a tough little cookie&could use some more followers.)

10. harlow b at staying thin~thinking out loud (you probably already know how lovely she is.)

or:

the girl on the left isn't even fat but the girl on the right looks so much better. i like stripes&i'm stoked that one day i'll look good in them. stay strong today, lovelies.

xoxo

zette

p.s. i bought a one-piece swimsuit tonight as an incentive to not be a motherfucking whale this summer.

p.p.s. i started this at 3:22, it is now 10:13. oops. also, didn't check it so ignore any typos.