so i totally forgot that i posted that video of myself until i came home last night&checked my email. you're sweeties. went to the farmers market today. had a fresh tomato for lunch. i got blueberries, too. i split a banana nut muffin with my cat for breakfast this morning. she was trying to steal it anyway so i would just give every other piece to her. i'm a little tan. but only my arms, chest, &face. i actually had to get my makeup a shade darker. so i guess i'm not a ghost anymore. i'm still way tired. took the stairs 2-3 times a day. 12 flights. my legs are hella sore. worth it? yes. am i making any sense? i hope i am. i don't really read these things before i post, i just skim for typos. my mother drove to our old town 2 hours away to go to a friend's wedding&visit some people. i just got back from riding my bicycle to my sister's house to feed their dog. anyway..
three of the girls from my room. you can imagine how quickly our cookies disappeared. then they went to the vending machines to get more. gross.
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photo from camp. the skinny is a really sweet girl. it was 90's night, thus the godawful makeup. stay strong today, lovelies.
xoxo
zette
p.s. yes, photos today are based on the fact that i hate my face&that i'm hoping when i'm skinny it won't matter so much that my facial features are ugly.
I hate my face. My nose is horrible. It is very round and big on the end. If I could I would get plastic surgery to fix it but I'm pretty sure that it would make it hard-ish to breathe. And my teeth are permanently yellow. Whitening strips and such don't do much no matter how much I use them. I hope being skinny will distract from my odd nose and such. Or at least somewhat make up for it.
ReplyDeleteI had a dream about you last night!!! I missed you. In my dream we were eating lunch hiding from everyone at the school I was teaching at... you had 1/2 apple and 1 had 1/2 pear. Random. Nice work on the stairs! Impressive. & for the record I think your face is beautiful xxx
ReplyDeletehah love the camp pictures. I'm glad you're back, I've missed your posts. And as for the face thing...yeah, part of me hopes my face will change shape or something if I lose enough weight (take nicole richie's face change for instance) but I think when you are thin, people even take abnormal faces to be 'interesting' and 'unique' rather than 'ugly'. Just look at some of the weird-ass top model faces. On heavier girls that would be completely fucked up.
ReplyDeleteI totally forgot you posted that video too, so I just watched it and your voice doesn't sound at all what I thought it would. Not like I thought it would sound bad or anything, but your voice surprised me. And your singing sounded really good! If Hayley Williams ever quits the band just dye your hair orange and grab your guitar!
ReplyDeleteI love all the pictures that you post. Well, minus the three girls in your room. Maybe they just never learned how to eat well? Idk. lol.
ReplyDeletelove the photos, minus the first, xo
ReplyDeleteLove all of the pictures :) Especially the balloon one.
ReplyDeletePS: I think your face is beautiful :)
You really shouldn't hate your face, I think it is beautiful, honestly
ReplyDeleteI loved your song :3 Your voice is AMAZING! I cracked up when you went 'DAMMIT!', you sound sooooo cute!
ReplyDeleteI hate my face too, hence why I often cover all the mirrors in my house :/
ih ate my face as well
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