9:25am

the high is 105 today. better than monday, which was 108. if you haven't been in this sort of weather before, you won't understand that. really after 102 it all feels the same. you walk outside, your makeup drips off your face, your hair does weird things, everything is hot. but no worries. summer always ends eventually. then we forget how motherfucking miserable it was just in time for it to come around again, since it lasts from about late april to mid-september. sometimes it's still warm on halloween. jesus. this state sucks. moving north asap.

some things i've noticed:

1. watching pretty little liars on hulu. spencer has smaller legs than i do, i think.
2. fat people tend to say something like "i'll just taste it" then eat a whole serving before they even have their 'meal'.
3. i'm not flirty, but i am witty&a little rude, which is apparently the same thing as being flirty to guys. don't accuse me of leading someone on just because they're stupid.
4. i'm almost over my fear of tarantulas since we killed so many.
5. i dislike being touched even more than i thought i did. please don't put your hand on my back when i'm walking on crutches. it freaks me out&throws me off balance.

6. i say awful things, but i don't do awful things. i will say "i hope you die in your sleep" but i will not spread a nasty rumor about you.
7. using sun-in for my hair is fun. my hair is not orange or dried out, by the way. it's just lighter.
8. people take their kids to movies they shouldn't be taken to. i saw three moms with their young (12-14year old) sons coming into the movie "bad teacher". what made you think your son should see fake tits on a big screen?
8. people should take better care of their feet. clip your toenails, exfoliate, &use lotion. those suckers have to carry your fat ass around all day.

9. i am going out of my way to make myself appear healthy&happy. between sweet body spray, a tan, &carefullyobsessivelyconstantly applied makeup, i look pretty normal, even on my tiredshittyfaint days. fake fake fake. it's a fun game to play.

10. i guess i slept weird because my ankle hurts today. not really bad, just constant&consistent. i can't wait for it to heal up. i want to go running soooo badly. floor exercises aren't doing it for me.

a certain someone emailed me the question "is it better to hang out with a thin person for thinspo or an overweight person for reverse?" personally, any human contact is great. i'm kidding. sort of. really though, it depends on howeverthefuck you react. a lot of people like having a friend who is bigger than they are. i'll give you a personal example. N went to a junior college. her roommate ended up being a girl named S. S is about 50lbs heavier than N, which made N feel skinny. ended up being a bad thing because N considered S fat instead of being overweight in general, fat. so she gained weight, thinking of herself as being "thinner than S". so when i stayed at N's parents house with her for a few days, she suddenly realized that she had gained weight because she's 9 sizes above me in juniors. since i love exercise, we spent those days riding bikes in her neighborhood up&down all the hills, going on walks, &swimming. i even got her to buy a hula hoop for when she's watching tv. anyway, pick your friends the way anyone picks friends: a person you get along with, who doesn't treat you like shit or bring you down when you're supposed to be having fun. that's my advice, shitty as it is. whatever. i don't know. why do you guys come to me for advice anyway? silly girls.

or:

least flattering dress of all time? nah, it's just her gross stomach. stay strong today, lovelies.

xoxo

zette

p.s. my complexion is improving. cheers for clean&clear.