Friday, March 23, 2012

11:22am

this sort of rarely eating, replacing food with coffee&organic lollipops thing is wearing me out. i have to be able to work. i've got to find a way to lose more weight without losing my head. i'm not the brightest but i'm not stupid, so i know i'll find a way but at the moment i'm frustrated. was going to do "eat monday, wednesday, friday, (500) on weekends" but that scares me.
my friend is all concerned about me. "The blisters on your hands are from lighters not cooking burns. The bandages on your fingers are because you cut them open not because you play guitar. I can feel all your bones under that hoodie. You fooled the rest of them when you stopped partying but Im not stupid. Youre still hurting yourself. 
 I cant just watch you kill yourself, Suzette." i was really tempted to be a drama queen&say "then don't watch" but i didn't. i didn't reply at all. people make me sad.


i love this photo. this girl thinks she has a thyroid problem like twiggy. she probably does. she's crazy small. i love this photo because of the look that chubby girl is giving her. stay strong today, lovelies.

xoxo
zette
p.s. i don't get why people make lists of "low-cal, filling foods" why do you want to feel full? being full feels so gross.

2 comments:

  1. I think you know that work comes first so please find the energy to get during the day.. it's nice to have your friend care about you, keep it calm though so you don't hurt her feelings for her caring
    have a lovely weekend :)

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  2. B vitamin pills give me a boost. I try to take at least 1 500mg B complex with vitamin C (I think it's mg) pill a day. Otherwise it's coffee. You'll find something that works for you. I don't comment much on your posts, but whenever i'm on blogger I read yours cause you are one of my favorites :) (Not to sound weird.) Anyways stay strong! <3

    Oh I was wondering what diet/weightloss pills you think work best. I saw you posted before about the annoying person at the store when you bought some green tea ones or something. I've been curious to try some but would like your opinion. Thanks Zette :)

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