9:35am

good morning, i guess. woke up to my mother hollering from the back door for me to clean the house. anyone else wake up to yelling? kind of puts a damper on my day. well, at least my mood. grump grump grumpy. down a pound though. my next little goal is meeting with a friend again to discuss counseling. last time i wore leggings under my jeans&hid my ribs under a hoodie. my hands looked fat, i remember. funny how something looks fine until it's all you see. like when a girl surrounds herself with less attractive friends. she looks great in comparison. but then they step away&she's about average. yes, i'm judgmental. if you didn't follow my old blog, you haven't learned what a bitch i am yet. but you'll get used to it. well, that or you'll leave. shoot, i'm rambling. hope it makes sense. (oh, &i will prolly never go to counseling. she wants me to see a christian counselor which means there are no real solutions, just "pray about it"&"god will get you through." hah.)
also, a friend texted me this morning about this blog wondering who it is. it's me. pinky promise. same zette you've loved or hated.

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you don't have to be much smaller to look better. but the smaller the better, right? stay strong today, lovelies.

xoxo

zette

p.s. my routine isn't perfect but it's safe&when it gets screwed up i am not a happy camper.

11:10am

i have taken up smoking. camel crush, my current love. excuse the bedhead&chubby fingers.

i do not like starting over. i went from 393 followers to 8. it took me forever to get into a routine at my old blog. goddamn motherfucking cunt alex cooke walden i hope you get hit by a car. i do not like starting over.
also, i do not like eating. it's nerve wracking. did i miscount? did extra spill in when i measured? probably did. better not eat it.
i do not want to eat. i want to waste away quickly, not slowly. i do not want to leave, i want to simply be gone. i want to get out before they catch me jumping the fence. fuck.

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hi i'm wide&i like to wear really fucking bright shirts to accentuate this. stay strong today, lovelies.

xoxo

zette

p.s. no offense to my followers. just feeling alone today.

9:53am

good morning, ladies. down a pound from yesterday. which is impressive because i was at 110cals before i went to the cinema with friends (to see red riding hood) &we went to panda express after. i guess doing workouts for two hours after mother went to bed paid off. 

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the skinny in the black dress is darling. the girl in the white, billowy shirt should have worn something else. stay strong today, lovelies.

xoxo

zette

p.s. i'm cold. almost always cold. anyone else?

p.p.s. to answer the emails, yes, it's really me, goofball.

4:43pm

my blog was found. after a lot of thought, this is my new one. please spread the word, i can't post a link on my old blog because i'm not sure if a certain someone will see it. missed you, darlings.

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left to right: fat, average, skinny. stay strong today, lovelies.

xoxo

zette

p.s. happytobeback.